I wish I would have known that much sooner.
Last night, I was let in on some…information, about particular person. It wasn’t even bad, but it was annoying at the fact that I had no idea. Communication is key, and to talk to someone else about being interest in someone else, doesn’t help your cause. Especially with me. I’d like to know these things. I base my decisions upon how I am treated, spoken to, etc. I was receiving very little energy from said person on how feelings were. So, I took it as a friendly thing, and that any decision I made, I would say something, and it be that.......................

"Yesterday I dared to struggle. Today I dare to win."

walker of dissonant worlds

Come on. fuck it. I’ll think of something later…



I can’t decide
Which way choose
I’ve got nothing to win
but alot to lose
Maybe this life
wasn’t meant to waste
I’m jusy moving in circle’s
With nothing to waste


Stap me down with disillusion
Tie me up in lifelines
Nothing stops my thought’s from breeding
Nothing’s stopping my mind
Hurt me now ‘for I’m leaving
Turn my love into hate
I’ll shake off every sizzle
Every promise I make

All my colors I’ve lost
In your eyes, Chinese black
Save your light of this moment
Sunrise, black, Chinese black

Hear the name that I’m calling
Black, black, Chinese black

Chinese black, won’t you help me
Tie a chain ‘round my neck
Only darkness I will see
For I’m not coming back

Feel my heart always ??
Lips are frozen, your kiss
I’ll check in every corner
It’s always you that I miss 
''Many people are so imprisoned in their minds that the beauty of nature does not really exist for them. They might say, “What a pretty flower,” but that’s just a mechanical mental labeling. Because they are not still, not present, they don’t truly see the flower, don’t feel it’s essence, it’s holiness-just as they don’t know themselves, don’t feel their own essence, their own holiness."

Living is this tawdry, mediocre, disciplined thing which we call our existence.Life is bound to have no meaning.


Through the Pain - Time Heals Nothing


"I am silver and exact. I have no preconceptions.
Whatever I see, I swallow immediately.
Just as it is, unmisted by love or dislike
I am not cruel, only truthful "

Senin nöbetindeyim ben, başka yerde sen uyanıkken; benden çok uzaklarda ,başkalarına çok yakınken.
11 EYLUL PAZAR_ Mayhem:P