Carpathian Forest - The Last Sigh of Nostalgia

Kemiriyor böcekler,
direniyor kemikler
Acımı hisset
benimle dans et!

DEVİR ÇIKARCILAR DEVRİ..

There is a light that never goes out.

Sizi sakladığım yerde unuttum. Bağışlayın. Kalbime diyorum, en son oraya koymamış mıydım sizi? Açtım kapadım mazinin çekmecelerini… Bir ömür aradım sizi… Dağılan takvim yapraklarını topladım da bir bir… Unutmaya alışırken buldum kendimi. Ve unutmak istemediğimi hatırladım… Hafızam gün günden zayıflıyor, kusuruma bakmayın. İsminiz? … Yüzünüzü yanlış hatırlıyor olmalıyım. Gözlerinizin bitip de aşkın başladığı yeri… Ben sizi bir vakitler çok sevmiş olabilir miyim? . Anımsıyor musunuz sizde?  Bir varmış… Bir yokmuş… Ben sizi evvel zaman içinde sevdim. Kaf dağının ardındaydınız. Kırk gün kırk gece… Sahi ben sizi çok sevmiş miydim?

 What a lamb to it's slaughter
Buried in water


Down 
Under the ground
There's a town there
I've been down there
In the middle of the lake
I hold your hand for goodness sake


When the women and kid's are asleep
The walls there
And the skin of the sheep
So lock all
The windows and doors
The Devil's coming for you and yours


Like a lamb to his slaughter
Buried in water
Buried in water


Buried in water


When the leaves
go floating away
in the pale moonlight
bury anchors in our garden
and we can let our heartbeats go

Dead Man's Bones - Buried in water

beni buradan ve bu zamandan götür.

Mr. Big - To Be With You

Biri Var

Yaşadığım şehir gibi
Cöllerde nehir gibi
Sanki beni sever gibi biri var
Güzel gözleri haram
Catal dilleri ölüm
Bu günlerde beni yaşatmayan biri var
Kimine göre bir iş değil bu bizimkisi
Kimine göre bir aşk bitmezki hiç sevgisi
Kimine göre yanlış
Kimine göre doğru 

Festival 2011: SONS OF NORWAY trailer

Barbie is Not your Friend:g

Hole- No, No, No

Everybody's wrong everybody's right
Someone must be wrong when someone else is right!

I wish I would have known that much sooner.
Last night, I was let in on some…information, about particular person. It wasn’t even bad, but it was annoying at the fact that I had no idea. Communication is key, and to talk to someone else about being interest in someone else, doesn’t help your cause. Especially with me. I’d like to know these things. I base my decisions upon how I am treated, spoken to, etc. I was receiving very little energy from said person on how feelings were. So, I took it as a friendly thing, and that any decision I made, I would say something, and it be that.......................

"Yesterday I dared to struggle. Today I dare to win."

walker of dissonant worlds

Come on. fuck it. I’ll think of something later…

I can’t decide
Which way choose
I’ve got nothing to win
but alot to lose
Maybe this life
wasn’t meant to waste
I’m jusy moving in circle’s
With nothing to waste


Stap me down with disillusion
Tie me up in lifelines
Nothing stops my thought’s from breeding
Nothing’s stopping my mind

Hurt me now ‘for I’m leaving
Turn my love into hate
I’ll shake off every sizzle
Every promise I make

All my colors I’ve lost
In your eyes, Chinese black
Save your light of this moment
Sunrise, black, Chinese black

Hear the name that I’m calling
Black, black, Chinese black

Chinese black, won’t you help me
Tie a chain ‘round my neck
Only darkness I will see
For I’m not coming back

Feel my heart always ??
Lips are frozen, your kiss
I’ll check in every corner
It’s always you that I miss 

''Many people are so imprisoned in their minds that the beauty of nature does not really exist for them. They might say, “What a pretty flower,” but that’s just a mechanical mental labeling. Because they are not still, not present, they don’t truly see the flower, don’t feel it’s essence, it’s holiness-just as they don’t know themselves, don’t feel their own essence, their own holiness."

Living is this tawdry, mediocre, disciplined thing which we call our existence.Life is bound to have no meaning.

Through the Pain - Time Heals Nothing

"I am silver and exact. I have no preconceptions.
Whatever I see, I swallow immediately.
Just as it is, unmisted by love or dislike
I am not cruel, only truthful "

aklındayım,aklımdasın..farkındayım farkındasın..zaten

Senin nöbetindeyim ben, başka yerde sen uyanıkken; benden çok uzaklarda ,başkalarına çok yakınken.
11 EYLUL PAZAR_ Mayhem:P

nothing left inside.

Someone told me long ago
There's a calm before the storm
I know
It's been coming for some time
When it's over so they say
It'll rain on a sunny day
I know
Shining down like water

I wanna know
Have you ever seen the rain?
I wanna know
Have you ever seen the rain?

Coming down on a sunny day
Yesterday and days before
Sun is cold and rain is hard
I know
It's been that way for all my time
Till forever on it goes
Through the circle fast and slow
I know
And it can't stop I wonder

I wanna know
Have you ever seen the rain?
I wanna know
Have you ever seen the rain?

I wanna know
Have you ever seen the rain?
I wanna know
Have you ever seen the rain?

Everybody's wrong everybody's right
Someone must be wrong when someone else is right

Saturday
i've come to hate you so
You hesitate to show me how
When I need your embrace
It's too late
It's already been too long
And now It seems so wrong
To sit all by myself and wait..

işin güzel yanlarından biri de  başka bir hayata geçiş .. diğerini yerde bırakıp gökyüzünde yeniden varolmak

 gv.

eskiden bana yanlış, imkansız gelen ,kesinlikle olmaması gereken şeyler, şuanda var ..ne bu kendini aşmak mı?


hayır.aptallık

Nowhere to walk backwards forwards

And the sun goes down 
I watch you slip away 
And the sun goes down 
I walk into the waves 
And the sun goes down 
I watch you slip away 
And I walk... 
And I knew 
Love would tear you apart 
Oh, and I knew the darkest secret of your heart 

jay-jay johanson - Alone again

Dark Entries #34 by GVenomous

Joy Division - The Soft Moon - Mittageisen - Art Diktatör - She Past Away - Front Line Assembly - Martin Dupont - PIL - Film Noir - Minny Pops - Xmal Deutschland - Sardine V - Elanø B - Toz ve Toz

olmayan bir gündü o, olmasını istemediğim
biraz tereddütlü ,ürkek , çekingen
olmasını istemediğim
ama o gün gelmişti serin tanımadığım bir rüzgar..
bu his tuhaftı çünkü böyle olmamalıydı, ben biliyordum.
adımlar...rrr ve o gece başlamıştı.
hiçbirşey uzaktan görüldüğü gibi değildi, yanlıştı!
o geceyi anlatan tek kelime ''ruhsuz '' du.
eşyalar,suratlar,rüzgar,ortam...
şu an radyoda çalan parça 23:48 çarşamba ya da şarap vs direk vuruyordu içimdeki .. o gün hakkında.,kapattığım..
şimdi iyi geceler sesiyle yine kapandı..

Don't tell me I'm mixed up
You stupid big boy
I'm wrong you're right
I couldn't give a damn
I know that you don't need me
So watch me walk away
But before I go
You better give me my week's pay
I'm someone you don't understand
I'm the fool that laugh's and cries
I'm loved I'm hated oh what's going on

Everybody's wrong everybody's right
Someone must be wrong when someone else is right
Everybody's wrong everybody's right
You tell me that I'm wrong
Then you tell me that I'm right

Kemir beni

Aylardır ölüyüm. çürüdü bedenim
Geride tek kalan. çürümüş bedenim
Ekranda ellerim. her yerde gözlerim
Odalar içinde. çürümüş bedenim
Açılan, kaybolan. eriyen hep aynı
İçimden tek çıkan. çürümüş bedenim

No Feelings

I've seen you in the mirror when the story began
And I fell in love with you I love your mortal sin
Your brains are locked away but I love your company
I only ever leave you when you got no money
I got no emotions for anybody else
You better understand I'm in love with myself,
Myself, my beautiful self

A no feelings
A no feelings
A no feelings
For anybody else

Hello and goodbye in a run around sue
You follow me around like a pretty pot of glue
I kick you in the head you got nothing to say
Get out of the way 'cause I gotta get away
You never realize I take the piss out of you
You come up and see me and I'll beat you black and blue
One day I'll send you away

I got no feelings
A no feelings
A no feelings
For anybody else
Except for myself, my beautiful selfish

There ain't no moonlight after midnight
I see you silly people out looking for delight
Well I'm so happy I'm feeling so fine
I'm watching all the rubbish, you're wasting my time
I look around your house, you got nothing to steal
I kick you in the brains when you get down to kneel
And pray, you pray to your god

No feelings
A no feelings
A no feelings
For anybody else
A no feelings
A no feelings
A no feelings
For anybody else
Except for myself
Your daddy's gone away
Be back another day
See his picture hanging on your wall

• .This was never the way I planned
• .Too good to deny it
• .Ain't no big deal, it was innocent

Joy Division Passover

Yarım kalan bu düş bizim mi
Yoksa yiten ben miyim derken
Nerden geldin sen

Geeks do not have pedigrees
Or perfect punk-rock resumes
Or anorexic magazines
It smells like girl, it smells like girl
She walks over me
She walks over me
Hold you close like we both died
My ever pressing suicide
My stupid fuck, my blushing bride
Oh, tear my heart out, tear my heart out
She walks over me
She walks over me
I shut my mouth with you for a rag
I use the rest of you for a gag
I shut my mouth with you for a gag
I use the rest of you
Kitty, Kitty
Please come here
Don't, Don't you touch me, don't you dare
We look the same, we talk the same, we are the same, we are the same
She walks over me
She walks over me
I shut my mouth with you for a rag
I use the rest of you for a gag
I shut my mouth with you for a rag
I use the rest of you
Nothing seems to walk the same
Nothing seems to talk the same
You never know what you will get
You never know what you'll forget
She walks over me
She walks over me

I tell you
I never wanted it to be this way
I never wanted to impress
It finally arrives, the comfort of the place
rejected reason, courage, disgrace
It's possible my soul is okay
but i can't make my heart stand straight
only one thing left in this space
that will go dark and then light again
self acceptance the alcohol ignites
don't come to disturb my delight
WE 'RE STILL TIED WITH CHAINS

She Past Away - kasvetli kutlama

Hole - She Walks On Me

Confusion in her eyes that says it all.
She's lost control.
And she's clinging to the nearest passer by,
She's lost control.
And she gave away the secrets of her past,
And said I've lost control again,
And of a voice that told her when and where to act,
She said I've lost control again.

My heart leaps up when I behold 
A rainbow in the sky
So it was my life began
So is it now I am a man
So it be when I shall grow old
Or let me die
The child is the father of the man
And I could wish my days to be
Bound each to each by natural piety

I'm not afraid to dress the way I please
to wear my rags anytime on any street
and I'm not afraid to say what I like
'cause I get what I want anytime any night
I'm not like you
No I'm not like you
Just keep to myself
I don't look like most people do,
but I dress real sharp, and
I feel real cool.
Yeah I'm not like you

Hiç konuşmadan anlaşabilir miyiz acaba?

Love and Dance = Rumba

ve yine hiçlikte
boğuluyor benliğim derinlerde..

KUPA ÜÇLÜSÜ

This Is England Soundtrack - please let me get what i want

get well get well get well get well get well get well
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get well get well get well get well get well get well 
get well get well get well get well get well get well
get well get well get well get well get well get well
get well get well get well get well get well get well
get well get well get well get well get well get well

zincirlere vurulmuş sandığın etrafında ölü güneş beraberinde,
belirsiz gölgeler
öldürücü kahkahalar
sinsi ayak sesleri
umursamaz duvarlar  
boyalı deriler
kılıflanmış vücutlar
bulandırıcı hisler...
gürültüden asla mahrum bırakılmamış ..
sandık yosun tutmuş,
sanırım su almış.
diplerde yuva yapmış
böceklere sarılmış...

London calling, yes, I was there, too
An’ you know what they said? Well, some of it was true!
London calling at the top of the dial
After all this, won’t you give me a smile?
London calling
I never felt so much alike alike alike alike

you're the swinging man

10 Eylül 2011: Mayhem

All the clocks must stop! when I saw him.

Gözlerimi karanlığa dikip başladım bakmaya,
Şaşkınlık ve korku yüklü rüyalar geçti aklımdan.

''patience''

Life is short, you're capable

Funeral Blues (I like very much)

Stop all the clocks, cut off the telephone,
Prevent the dog from barking with a juicy bone,
Silence the pianos and with muffled drum
Bring out the coffin, let the mourners come.

Let aeroplanes circle moaning overhead
Scribbling on the sky the message He is Dead.
Put crepe bows round the white necks of the public doves,
Let the traffic policemen wear black cotton gloves.

He was my North, my South, my East and West,
My working week and my Sunday rest,
My noon, my midnight, my talk, my song;
I thought that love would last forever: I was wrong.

The stars are not wanted now; put out every one,
Pack up the moon and dismantle the sun,
Pour away the ocean and sweep up the woods;
For nothing now can ever come to any good.

O God! can I not save
One from the pitiless wave?
Is all that we see or seem
But a dream within a dream?

Sanki bin yaşındayım, o kadar hatıram var.

Sarhoş olun!

Ama neyle? Şarapla, şiirle, ya da erdemle, nasıl isterseniz. Ama sarhoş olun.

Ve bazı bazı, bir sarayın basamakları, bir hendeğin yeşil otları üzerinde, odanızın donuk yalnızlığı içinde, sarhosluğunuz azalmış ya da büsbütün geçmiş bir durumda uyanırsanız, sorun, yele, dalgaya, yıldıza, kuşa, saate sorun, her kaçan şeye, inleyen, yuvarlanan, şakıyan, konuşan her şeye sorun, 'saat kaç' deyin; yel, dalga, yıldız, kuş, saat hemen verecektir karşılığını: 'Sarhoş olma saatidir. Zamanın inim inim inletilen köleleri olmamak için sarhoş olun durmamacasına! Şarapla, şiirle, ya da erdemle, nasıl isterseniz.'

Şimdiki yolundan ayrılmaya.
Olduğun herşeyken şimdi,
Olmadığın şey olma.

Dünya leyla
Unutmuş aşk nerde
Dönüp durmuş aynı yerde

Dünya hülya
Hayaller bitince
Hayat bulmuş senle bende

Bak gece gündüz oldu yine
Zaman durdu tek kadehte
Kime ne
Yok bitmez dertler içince
Boş bahane
Vur dibine

Dünya leyla
Unutmuş aşk nerde
Dönüp durmuş hep boş yere

Dünya güya
Şişenin dibinde
Kafam bi dünya oldu senle


Dünya hülya olmuş
Gerçekleri bitince
senle bende soluk bulmuş

Bak işte!
Bu bir gala gecesi
Bir yığın melek üşüşüyor etrafa
Derken, yalnızlıkların sesi
Gözyaşlarına boğulmuşlar
Gözden uzakta
Gizli gizli
Al yerini sende seyret
Tiyatroda gibi, bizi


Bir oyun bu oynanan
Ve...
Bu oyunun korku ve ümitleri
Orkestra eşliğinde
Nefesleri
Çalınan, tıpkı
Çoban sürüsü müzikleri


Yukarıda var olan
Kutsal mimikler
Oysa ki, mırıldanmalar
Homurdanmalar
Alttakiler
Kuklalar ve gölgeleri
Bir o yana, bir bu yana
Önümüzden gelip geçenleri


Oldukça da biçimsiz nesneler
Ve onların emrindeki
Bir muazzam manzara, seyredilen
Hiç durmadan, o yana ve bu yana
Yer değiştiren
Ve onların kocaman kanatları
Görünmezlik eşliğinde, görünen


Kesinlikle drama!
Her bir türden
Unutmak mı? İmkansız!
Hayaletler,gölgeler
Ve onların ardında
Onları takip edenler


Günah ve korku
Ve çılgınlıklar...
Kurulu bir düzen bu
Kalabalıklar...
Öyle büyük bir belirsizlik
Hep, geri dönüşlerle dolu


Bu hareket noktası rotasında
Ağrı ağır sürünen, emekleyen
Davetsiz
Kankırmızısı bir şey
Ve de karanlık...
biçimsiz
kıvranan, debelenen
Harikulade bir yalnızlık


Yemine doğru ilerlerken
İçi kanla doldurulmuş
Izdırap dolu keskin dişlerinde
Ve bir serap, düşleri
Hayalet gölgeler eşliğinde


öndürün;
Söndürün ışıkların hepsini...!
Bir cenaze örtüsü gibi, perde
İç ürpertici
Kükreyen bir fırtına, kasırga gibi
Melekler, hepsi solgun ve bitkin
Ayaklanma,isyan,teyit
Bir trajedi oynanırken
Oyunun adı '''İNSAN '''
Ve işte oyunun kahramanı
Galip ''' SOLUCAN '''

pişman olmak için çok geç

yanlış zaman da hep doğru yerdeydik,
.....................................................................
doğru zaman da hep yanlış yerdeydik.

In the day of wrath
The hungry marionettes
Wake up
come alive
While birds of soul
Usher in
The rays of chaos..

'impossible'

"Do you want to play with me?"

In the soundtrack of my survival
The furious small hammers
Fully uprooted
From their key-shaped
Skeleton
Cruelly explore
Every cranial path
Always closer...
Always more painful!

Time is over
And there's no whispering prompter

No pain
I'm quite sure
She feels no pain!
The voice
Still throbs:
"Each man
Kills
The thing
He loves!"

Leftfield - Shallow Grave

Oh, yes. I believe in friends. I believe we need them. But if one day you can't trust them any more, well, what then... What then?

Went to a party
I danced all night
I drank 16 beers
And I started to laugh ...

7/8.1.11

Yol böyle çizilmiş
Biz oyunu bitirilmiş
Boş kuklalar gibimiyiz sahnede
Eğilmiş miyiz kopya kaderlere?
Ben hiç sanmıyorum
Hey! teslim olmuyorum
Neşemin katili korku, dinle biraz
Irzına geçer ruhum umrunda olmaz!!

Sol cebime saplandı kalbin, unuttun mu yok ki cebim.

sikin kadar konuş dangalak net denen keranede herkes

ALL MY COLOURS

Flying
And you know I'm not coming down
You're trying
But you know you must soon go down
All my colours
Turn to clouds
All my colours
Turn to cloud
What d'you say
When your heart's in pieces
How to play
Those cards in sequence
That box you gave me
Burned nicely
That box you gave me
Burned nicely
Flying down

This is Not a Love Song